joy in simplicity.

So, i'm not normally one to be in a mood that totally indescribable, that I just can't get off my mind. This morning I woke up after waking up from a bad dream that kept replaying all through the night. It was that my Grandma died. Again. Although, this time it was 10 x's worse then it was before. Try having a dream like that all night long, just going over and over and over again. I felt trapped. Which now leads me to my next part of this blog. As the day got started I found myself to be so melancholy that I honestly couldn't handle it. It was like I had this huge cloud hanging over my head and the sun just couldn't possibly shine through. I went on with my morning, doing the things that my mom had asked me to do. Trying desperately to figure out was was wrong with me. I was literally feeling trapped. Like I was locked inside a glass box, left to look out at the world, without a key. I called my dad, hoping that maybe, just maybe, there was some progress being made on him doing research before we look at cars for me. No dice. I then started thinking about the past few years of my life. Few months even. Since i've been out of school, finished with school. It was starting to feel discouraged and like I was left and hanging to dry. Feeling inactive, like I haven't gone anywhere with my life in the past few years. I was feeling trapped and stuck. No car. No job. No school. No where to go. Just the inside walls of this house. The walls surrounding the town that I live in. Until I went and ate lunch...I ate my lunch and sat with my mom while she ate hers. I told my mom I had been feeling stuck and trapped all day. Sometimes it is amazing how much my mom can bring things into light. More than I can ever think to. She told me "Kaitlyn, you will have a car soon, you'll be going to school soon, and hopefully you'll have a job soon." She is so right. It all happens in God's timing. Even if it feels like i'm not moving, or don't feel as if God is moving in me, He is always at work in my life. Sometimes it just takes time for His plans to fall into place. You know what, though? If it means that I am fulfilling his purpose for my life here on earth, then I will do whatever it takes. I'm thankful for a God who knows all and is carefully orchestrating every detail of my life. Who knows...maybe this was just something to wake me up!?