joy in simplicity.

yesterday i came home from a day busy day. i was gone all day long, and my thoughts seemed muddled, as they have been for a while now. after walking into my room, not necessarily wanting to be there, it occurred to me that maybe it would be a good idea to head out for a walk. so i laced up my running shoes, changed into some shorts, pulled my hair back, grabbed my phone (it plays music), let my mom know where i was headed to, and headed out. starting down my driveway, on my normal route around four blocks in my neighborhood, i started thinking. i decided that i would try and add a little bit of running into my normal walk. i've been getting healthier, losing weight, so why not? i started out feeling good. really good. running, running, running. it felt amazing. i realized after i had stopped running that i made it further than i had planned. going back to walking, i couldn't wait until i could start running again, once i could catch my breath. after my walk, i realized that i ran about half of my walk. i was proud of myself.

even though i've been in a stage of waiting. waiting to here what's next, where i'm supposed to go, feeling as if what i am doing right now in my life is pointless, like i'm wasting my time...daily i prove to myself that i'm not. i'm constantly being pushed, and whenever i feel like i can't go on any longer, or like this is all a waste of time, whatever this may be, something way bigger than me stops me in my tracks, and is always and forever showing me that i'm capable. even if i don't have the slightest clue of what is going on around me, something is being formed. plans are being made, and i know one of these days...sometime soon i will be swept off my feet. blown away by the One who has it all planned.

"For I know the plans I have for you," declares the Lord, "plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future. Then you will call upon me and come and pray  to me, and I will listen to you." Jeremiah 29: 11-12