Three weeks. That's all that is left. The closer and closer it gets the sadder and sadder I get. My heart is feeling so many different things right now. The past few weeks have been rough emotionally. I just don't know what I'm doing or where I'm supposed to go. Then realizing that I've only got a few more weeks left...that's enough to make me want to run to a near by hill and scream for a really really long time. I didn't think I would come here and feel as strongly about leaving this place as I am. I feel like I've made some lasting friendships here though.
Not only that, but you make friends and then you lose them throughout the summer, too. It hurts when you see people you were friends with at the beginning of the summer, and then they barely say two words to you when you see them again, and you haven't done anything to make them treat you that way. I know that everything that has happened here has happened for a reason. All of this will be/has been a growing and learning experience. I still have no idea why God brought me all the way to Minnesota for the whole summer and I'm learning that I have to wait until the summer is completely over to know exactly what that reason was.
Will I come back next summer? I've considered it. I can't say right now. I'd like to, but it all depends on what is going on in my life this time next summer. Maybe this was just a one time thing to prepare me for something bigger. We'll see. It's all what God really wants me to do.
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