Blogging has obviously taken a back seat over the past couple of weeks, and I'm afraid it will have to continue to be that way because this semester is the most ridiculous thing ever. When one signs up to take Intermediate Algebra, Accounting, Macroeconomics and Ethics all in the same semester, they are pretty much begging to not have a life outside of classes and homework.
So yeah...this semester is crazy, busy and extremely overwhelming at times. I lay in bed at night and still feel like I haven't gotten anything done after I've worked on homework all day long. I stay up until 11:00 most nights just because that's the only time I have to relax. I tell myself every evening that I'll be in bed before 11. Then I look at the clock and it's 11:00...then 11:30. Then I close my computer, turn the lights out and finally try and get some rest.
Most days I find that I look just as tired as I feel, and just as frazzled and fried out of my mind as I really am. I pledge to never ever put myself through a semester like this ever again. I'll die before I do it again.
I'm stressed out, I need a laugh, and really...I just want a nice and long vacation.
After how stressful my summer was, to how stressful this semester is, I find myself caught up in my head all the time and it's so overwhelming.
On top of the fact that I thought I could be superwoman this semester, I also have to really start thinking about where I want to transfer to finish my bachelors degree. It's been suggested that one starts applying a year before they are ready to transfer. I know where I want to end up, which is far away from where I am now.
The costs, the student loans...it all makes me want to cower in a corner.
But...I know that even in all of this chaos and uncertainty in my life, God does have a plan. And I'll get over these scary mountains. I'll be able to look back on these challenging times and see where God was at work.
And I know that He is. I see His hand in my life daily, in the little details. Thank goodness for the little details. If those didn't matter, I'd be in pretty bad shape.
I leave you with a video.
So yeah...this semester is crazy, busy and extremely overwhelming at times. I lay in bed at night and still feel like I haven't gotten anything done after I've worked on homework all day long. I stay up until 11:00 most nights just because that's the only time I have to relax. I tell myself every evening that I'll be in bed before 11. Then I look at the clock and it's 11:00...then 11:30. Then I close my computer, turn the lights out and finally try and get some rest.
Most days I find that I look just as tired as I feel, and just as frazzled and fried out of my mind as I really am. I pledge to never ever put myself through a semester like this ever again. I'll die before I do it again.
I'm stressed out, I need a laugh, and really...I just want a nice and long vacation.
After how stressful my summer was, to how stressful this semester is, I find myself caught up in my head all the time and it's so overwhelming.
On top of the fact that I thought I could be superwoman this semester, I also have to really start thinking about where I want to transfer to finish my bachelors degree. It's been suggested that one starts applying a year before they are ready to transfer. I know where I want to end up, which is far away from where I am now.
The costs, the student loans...it all makes me want to cower in a corner.
But...I know that even in all of this chaos and uncertainty in my life, God does have a plan. And I'll get over these scary mountains. I'll be able to look back on these challenging times and see where God was at work.
And I know that He is. I see His hand in my life daily, in the little details. Thank goodness for the little details. If those didn't matter, I'd be in pretty bad shape.
I leave you with a video.
HUGS. you'll make it to the other side. You're already halfway up this semester's mountain! (or actually at the top, I guess.... all downhill now! =)) And the direction will come, I know it. Hang in there friend!
ReplyDeleteSide note: Oh! That video is from the Community Coffee House? I met the people that run that place at Hutchmoot. They were awesome.