Am I controlling my life?

I'm going to start blogging about things that come to mind and the way I feel about them. I'm writing a list so I can continue to update this blog and not allow it to die.

So often I find myself praying, wanting something to improve. I know God hears all prayers and knows what is on our hearts, but a lot of the time I want the outcome to be one way, and when it isn't I get mad. I think that everything is going to be all peaches and roses, but when I get to the outcome of the situation, it's never as pretty as I visioned it to be. It's like i'm setting myself up for disappointment, which is usually what happens. The more I think about it though, the more I realize that things are going to be tough before they improve. I think that maybe it was God's way of working it out, and basically giving me a wake up call, because i'm trying to control my life too much. I'm at a stage in my life right now where I can't rely on myself for whatever turn my life takes. I make goals for myself and set dates to finish things and it never happens. So then I feel like a failure when I don't achieve those goals, but i'm thinking I need to let God set the goals for my life. I'll finish highschool when I finish highschool. I'll get a job and a car when I get a job and a car. I think it's time for me to stop trying to take control of my life and let God have the wheel this time.