Lately it seems as if one thing comes after another. My life isn't usually this eventful. Some of it's good and some of it's bad, but seriously..the bad has really been getting be down lately. I'm usually a pretty positive person no matter what happens, but all of this crud has just got me feeling down in the dumps. I got sick this week and it's got me moping around like it's more than just a cold. I haven't been sick in over a year and a half. Not once, and this is how I act? I'm ready to just tell myself to suck it up and get over it. I want to go back to being my normal self so bad. The Kaitlyn that always has a smile on her face. Whenever she speaks she can barely speak because she's got such a huge smile on her face, the one that is so happy with the way life is going that it just oozes out of her.
I have so many different reasons to be smiling right now, too. Through the bad so many good things are happening and I can only thank Jesus for providing for me. First it was me finding this summer camp to work at and being so enthusiastic about it, and feeling confident that I would get the job because it was almost like God had already confirmed things with me. I ended up getting the job and I can't wait for this summer. I am ALMOST counting down the days! I am also flying up to Illinois to see my favorite band in concert, and hang out with some amazing people from their message boards for a couple of days. That's more than I could ask for! THEN my secret sister from church [I don't know who..it's a secret DUH!], gave me TWO tickets to go see the Newsboys in concert as an early birthday present. Seriously..how much better could things be? I feel like I should be on cloud nine right now, yet I still feel like i'm down in the dumps. God has provided for me in so many ways just when I need it. The only thing that I can think of is the fact that I am still having a problem with the passing of my Grandma, and the fact that I haven't been spending time with God like I should. Please pray for me.
Get in your bible, girl!!
ReplyDeleteSeriously... since I got back into reading mine, I've found my attitude has been transformed. It is easier to put the bad in perspective when you know that God is in control and that He can use us where we're at. Even when we're hurting.
It's about getting our focus off of our trials and onto Him... He will bring us through.
I will be praying for you. And I will email again tomorrow to make sure you've at least picked up your bible!
Love ya, girl.
Amen, Gina. It's amazing how much digging into the Word of God on a regular basis can affect the way you think and feel. Some days, it's the only thing that keeps me grounded.
ReplyDeleteStill praying for you, K.